I feel numb. Is that the right word to use?

I really really really wanted to write a post on Thursday. I vaguely remember what I wanted to post about: this metaphor of interpersonal relations I came up with – likening it to paper and origami. I don't know if I should still go ahead and write and post it; it definitely would have came through a lot better if I had just done it on Thursday itself when my emotions were more intense. Something did happen that incited lots of feeling and thought in me. I wanted to write about someone I met. Someone I felt I only just got to know. Someone I did not treasure. I wish I had done something to fix things when time was ample. Shall not delve once again into that now, it is not the same anymore.

Thinking back, maybe I could have done more things right. It's hard to believe we are nearing the end of 2011. It's true that time flies, but honestly, I do feel this is one of those 'slower' years already. But there are really some things I wished had gone down better. Then again, there were many others which were not exactly great, but memorable.

There's some things that I regret, some words I wish had gone unsaid
Some starts that had some better endings
Been some bad times I've been through, damage I could not undo
Some things I wish I could do all over again
But it don't really matter, when life gets that much harder
It makes you that much stronger
Some pages turned, some bridges burned
But there were lessons learned

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Had my first 2 big eoys papers on Friday, after the English essay one the Friday before. Social Studies and Chemistry. I hope I do ok. I really did try quite hard in both subjects, I hope it is fair to say I put in enough effort. I don't know how to judge so. But I tried. Don't feel like going too much into that either – the social studies paper was just.... stressful. On a lighter note, my Kristin Chenoweth SOME LESSONS LEARNED cd finally came! That made life a little brighter....

I feel numb. Is that the right word to use?

I really really really wanted to write a post on Thursday. I vaguely remember what I wanted to post about: this metaphor of interpersonal relations I came up with – likening it to paper and origami. I don't know if I should still go ahead and write and post it; it definitely would have came through a lot better if I had just done it on Thursday itself when my emotions were more intense. Something did happen that incited lots of feeling and thought in me. I wanted to write about someone I met. Someone I felt I only just got to know. Someone I did not treasure. I wish I had done something to fix things when time was ample. Shall not delve once again into that now, it is not the same anymore.

Thinking back, maybe I could have done more things right. It's hard to believe we are nearing the end of 2011. It's true that time flies, but honestly, I do feel this is one of those 'slower' years already. But there are really some things I wished had gone down better. Then again, there were many others which were not exactly great, but memorable.

There's some things that I regret, some words I wish had gone unsaid
Some starts that had some better endings
Been some bad times I've been through, damage I could not undo
Some things I wish I could do all over again
But it don't really matter, when life gets that much harder
It makes you that much stronger
Some pages turned, some bridges burned
But there were lessons learned

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Had my first 2 big eoys papers on Friday, after the English essay one the Friday before. Social Studies and Chemistry. I hope I do ok. I really did try quite hard in both subjects, I hope it is fair to say I put in enough effort. I don't know how to judge so. But I tried. Don't feel like going too much into that either – the social studies paper was just.... stressful. On a lighter note, my Kristin Chenoweth SOME LESSONS LEARNED cd finally came! That made life a little brighter....