Dreams. I believe in having dreams and the power of dreams. When we were young, everyone had dreams. Big dreams – dreams of being successful, of being famous, of being rich. Indeed, these dreams may have been impractical and as insubstantial as thin air, but it was the courage and ability to dream BIG that mattered. What more, those dreams were definitely not restricted by social status quos. To be a firefighter, an artist, a policeman, a rockstar, the president, there were no boundaries. When a kid dreams to be a doctor or lawyer, rarely will they claim it is for the cash. However, with time and age, coupled with the harshness of reality, the will and strength to chase after those dreams begin to dwindle and eventually extinguishes.

I read a really good post about chasing dreams and having the courage to do so yesterday. This abstract struck a chord in me. I found myself being able to relate to what was written, and it almost perfectly summarises my dilemma in life.

"Will you choose to listen to the dream stealers, the people who want you to live the same boring and mediocre lives they do? Will you choose to let your fears win and give up on your dreams? This is the path chosen by many; it is the safe route through life. You will have a somewhat comfortable yet mundane life, with little to no time to do what you really want.

You can be different, though. You can take the path that very few people ever do. Will you choose to be courageous and go after what you really want? Will you choose to ignore the little doubting voice in your head telling you that you can’t, and chase your dreams?"

When I was younger, I use to believe that regardless what the world tells me, I will go all out to fulfil whatever dream I have and do whatever makes me most happy with my life. Then, at the cusp of accomplishment and greatness, I was ever so determined to achieve anything I set out to do, and it was as though nothing could possibly filter through the immense faith I had in myself, and that the world was mine to take. But winners will always be forgotten over time, and victory is not eternal.

Over time, the absence of remainders of my capability and potential to achieve, I began to lose confidence in my abilities and myself as a whole. I slowly started accepting the fact that 'someone will always be better than you' in aspect a little too seriously, and it hindered me greatly in progressing. Unknowingly, it damaged my self-esteem quite a bit I think and I lost my competitive edge almost entirely. I do not think this seemed very apparent to me until recently.

Of course, now I would still love to go after my dreams fearlessly and likewise, do what I love most. I still believe in the power of dreams and that everyone deserves the right to chase after aspirations and goals. Looking back, it is interesting to discover, when I was brimming with hope and drive, I lacked direction. At that point I had no particular field of interest, no goals no aims no objective.

Through the course of this year, I have found an aspect I would love to delve and dabble more in – Theatre. It need not necessarily be what I will work on eventually, but it is something I have developed a passion for. I guess being introduced to the theatre at a young age, and growing up with watching musicals and pantomimes as a regular treat, it is almost inevitable that it would grow on me. The truth is, the magic of theatre has truly moved me and touched my heart. It has made me think and made me feel time and time again. I really grew up believing in the magic of theatrical arts, and now, I have finally fallen in love with it. I mean, one fine day this magic will die off, remaining a mere memory, but before it does I want to embrace it and be part of this magic. That is my current dream – I want to do something good in the theatre, for theatre.

What will I be eventually, I do not know. Frankly, yes the future scares me. And even though this passion for theatre drives and motivates me very very much, I do not know if it is enough for me to choose a career in it. Living in singapore, it breeds paranoia and from young we are taught to conform to the practical/materialistic system, it causes me to hesitate a little. No matter what it is, I want to live my life to its fullest while I am young. And whether or not I will be successful or doing what I like in the very end, I want to be part of the chase now, when I still have the chance to. It is all about the chase. Only now, I want to be part of the chase for my dreams and not simply the paper chase.

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Had the opportunity to work with a theatre company in the past week, as a follow spot operator. Frankly, I enjoyed myself quite a bit, and I liked what I was doing. No matter what anyone says, or what I may say to anyone, I love it, I love theatre work and whatever it is, I want to keep doing it. I do not think menial jobs is demeaning and I do not mind doing them too at this point. I believe in climbing the hierarchy slowly, from the very bottom, relying on my own ability. So as long as deep in my heart I know, I love what I am doing, I know I will be fine.

I have dreamt wide awake,
I have dreamt with my heart.
All I need is a break,
So that the real dream can start.
'Cause I've worked way to hard
To be brushed off just yet.
Time to prove to the world
I'm someone not to forget.

I can't let all my dreams go nowhere.
I won't stop--
Till the day that I finally get there.

I'm a star,
A star.

Dreams. I believe in having dreams and the power of dreams. When we were young, everyone had dreams. Big dreams – dreams of being successful, of being famous, of being rich. Indeed, these dreams may have been impractical and as insubstantial as thin air, but it was the courage and ability to dream BIG that mattered. What more, those dreams were definitely not restricted by social status quos. To be a firefighter, an artist, a policeman, a rockstar, the president, there were no boundaries. When a kid dreams to be a doctor or lawyer, rarely will they claim it is for the cash. However, with time and age, coupled with the harshness of reality, the will and strength to chase after those dreams begin to dwindle and eventually extinguishes.

I read a really good post about chasing dreams and having the courage to do so yesterday. This abstract struck a chord in me. I found myself being able to relate to what was written, and it almost perfectly summarises my dilemma in life.

"Will you choose to listen to the dream stealers, the people who want you to live the same boring and mediocre lives they do? Will you choose to let your fears win and give up on your dreams? This is the path chosen by many; it is the safe route through life. You will have a somewhat comfortable yet mundane life, with little to no time to do what you really want.

You can be different, though. You can take the path that very few people ever do. Will you choose to be courageous and go after what you really want? Will you choose to ignore the little doubting voice in your head telling you that you can’t, and chase your dreams?"

When I was younger, I use to believe that regardless what the world tells me, I will go all out to fulfil whatever dream I have and do whatever makes me most happy with my life. Then, at the cusp of accomplishment and greatness, I was ever so determined to achieve anything I set out to do, and it was as though nothing could possibly filter through the immense faith I had in myself, and that the world was mine to take. But winners will always be forgotten over time, and victory is not eternal.

Over time, the absence of remainders of my capability and potential to achieve, I began to lose confidence in my abilities and myself as a whole. I slowly started accepting the fact that 'someone will always be better than you' in aspect a little too seriously, and it hindered me greatly in progressing. Unknowingly, it damaged my self-esteem quite a bit I think and I lost my competitive edge almost entirely. I do not think this seemed very apparent to me until recently.

Of course, now I would still love to go after my dreams fearlessly and likewise, do what I love most. I still believe in the power of dreams and that everyone deserves the right to chase after aspirations and goals. Looking back, it is interesting to discover, when I was brimming with hope and drive, I lacked direction. At that point I had no particular field of interest, no goals no aims no objective.

Through the course of this year, I have found an aspect I would love to delve and dabble more in – Theatre. It need not necessarily be what I will work on eventually, but it is something I have developed a passion for. I guess being introduced to the theatre at a young age, and growing up with watching musicals and pantomimes as a regular treat, it is almost inevitable that it would grow on me. The truth is, the magic of theatre has truly moved me and touched my heart. It has made me think and made me feel time and time again. I really grew up believing in the magic of theatrical arts, and now, I have finally fallen in love with it. I mean, one fine day this magic will die off, remaining a mere memory, but before it does I want to embrace it and be part of this magic. That is my current dream – I want to do something good in the theatre, for theatre.

What will I be eventually, I do not know. Frankly, yes the future scares me. And even though this passion for theatre drives and motivates me very very much, I do not know if it is enough for me to choose a career in it. Living in singapore, it breeds paranoia and from young we are taught to conform to the practical/materialistic system, it causes me to hesitate a little. No matter what it is, I want to live my life to its fullest while I am young. And whether or not I will be successful or doing what I like in the very end, I want to be part of the chase now, when I still have the chance to. It is all about the chase. Only now, I want to be part of the chase for my dreams and not simply the paper chase.

---------------

Had the opportunity to work with a theatre company in the past week, as a follow spot operator. Frankly, I enjoyed myself quite a bit, and I liked what I was doing. No matter what anyone says, or what I may say to anyone, I love it, I love theatre work and whatever it is, I want to keep doing it. I do not think menial jobs is demeaning and I do not mind doing them too at this point. I believe in climbing the hierarchy slowly, from the very bottom, relying on my own ability. So as long as deep in my heart I know, I love what I am doing, I know I will be fine.

I have dreamt wide awake,
I have dreamt with my heart.
All I need is a break,
So that the real dream can start.
'Cause I've worked way to hard
To be brushed off just yet.
Time to prove to the world
I'm someone not to forget.

I can't let all my dreams go nowhere.
I won't stop--
Till the day that I finally get there.

I'm a star,
A star.