Being nice. I have reminded myself repeatedly, I shall be a nicer person this year. It is tough in the sense that, the progression from 2011 to 2012 has not been extremely significant for me. The lines of time are pretty blur, and to a large extent, I do not feel much of a transition from one passage of time to a fresh one. Perhaps to look at it in a different perspective, time does not really play an integral part in this process of self-improvement. In fact, it is quite entirely independent of it, so much that I ought to be able to embark and succeed in it without a single regard for time.

Then again, time is merely an excuse. We all know that. How many a time have we said we have the time to do something another time? Time is simply a deciding factor we slip into equations to comfort and console ourselves, to slightly ease the pangs of guilt we experience upon realising our inadequacies in fulfilling simple tasks we bind ourselves to. And while we are on the subject of excuses, how many times have we told ourselves we will stop giving excuses? Or even, to stop giving excuses to give excuses? I know I myself have pledged repeatedly to put a definite end to excuses giving, well, unfortunately, no triumph in that call til date.

To pull things in a little, back to our sole focus. My primary focus of this entry – being nice. In order to make this resolution a little more achievable, I have decided to take in all really slowly, in my own pace. Of course, this is not a loose excuse or cheap talk; I just do not want to intimidate myself by overcommitting to it, knowing I will abandon it midway. I do not want to abort this resolution, not this one. For the simple reason that it is a good one. I know it is silly to self-proclaim the goodness of one's own resolution, but I believe many others would concur that its fundamentals are indeed very aspiring, and come on, it is good to be nice! It is just not that straight-forward, as it is tough when people constantly get in your grill and grate at your nerves for no pinpoint reason at all!

I have attempted to start on this resolution (I keep trying to think of a synonym for 'resolution' but... Are there any synonyms for 'resolution???) Selectively, I have begun to be nicer to a couple of people. Not too many, but there are a specific few whom I have made conscious effort to.

I have my mind set of being nicer to teachers too. On one hand this will help me improve my character I hope, and secondly, I hope it will help improve my grades as well. You see, it has always been a known fact that I do well under teachers I like or in subjects that I like. Thus, with the improvement of my treatment of my teachers, I am certain it will be easier for me to like them. Or so I believe.

I have been trying had to get a grip on my own psyche lately; nothing too earth-shaking like a study of psychology or whatnot, its not rocket science, but instead, just hoping to get a better understanding of my own thinking. From which, I have gathered my mental capacity to favour or detest something oscillates between the two polar extremes very quickly, in a rather volatile manner you can put it. As such, I have deduced that in order to adjust a negative mind-set of mine, all I have to do it tweak some of my opinion of the subject slightly, and naturally, we will found ourselves at the other end of the spectrum soon enough. I know it probably sounds too simplistic or even improbable, but this is what I have discovered about myself – I am that easily swayed. So much that somehow or another, I will be able to hash into my own system to reinstate things. It is insane, sure.

Being nice. I have reminded myself repeatedly, I shall be a nicer person this year. It is tough in the sense that, the progression from 2011 to 2012 has not been extremely significant for me. The lines of time are pretty blur, and to a large extent, I do not feel much of a transition from one passage of time to a fresh one. Perhaps to look at it in a different perspective, time does not really play an integral part in this process of self-improvement. In fact, it is quite entirely independent of it, so much that I ought to be able to embark and succeed in it without a single regard for time.

Then again, time is merely an excuse. We all know that. How many a time have we said we have the time to do something another time? Time is simply a deciding factor we slip into equations to comfort and console ourselves, to slightly ease the pangs of guilt we experience upon realising our inadequacies in fulfilling simple tasks we bind ourselves to. And while we are on the subject of excuses, how many times have we told ourselves we will stop giving excuses? Or even, to stop giving excuses to give excuses? I know I myself have pledged repeatedly to put a definite end to excuses giving, well, unfortunately, no triumph in that call til date.

To pull things in a little, back to our sole focus. My primary focus of this entry – being nice. In order to make this resolution a little more achievable, I have decided to take in all really slowly, in my own pace. Of course, this is not a loose excuse or cheap talk; I just do not want to intimidate myself by overcommitting to it, knowing I will abandon it midway. I do not want to abort this resolution, not this one. For the simple reason that it is a good one. I know it is silly to self-proclaim the goodness of one's own resolution, but I believe many others would concur that its fundamentals are indeed very aspiring, and come on, it is good to be nice! It is just not that straight-forward, as it is tough when people constantly get in your grill and grate at your nerves for no pinpoint reason at all!

I have attempted to start on this resolution (I keep trying to think of a synonym for 'resolution' but... Are there any synonyms for 'resolution???) Selectively, I have begun to be nicer to a couple of people. Not too many, but there are a specific few whom I have made conscious effort to.

I have my mind set of being nicer to teachers too. On one hand this will help me improve my character I hope, and secondly, I hope it will help improve my grades as well. You see, it has always been a known fact that I do well under teachers I like or in subjects that I like. Thus, with the improvement of my treatment of my teachers, I am certain it will be easier for me to like them. Or so I believe.

I have been trying had to get a grip on my own psyche lately; nothing too earth-shaking like a study of psychology or whatnot, its not rocket science, but instead, just hoping to get a better understanding of my own thinking. From which, I have gathered my mental capacity to favour or detest something oscillates between the two polar extremes very quickly, in a rather volatile manner you can put it. As such, I have deduced that in order to adjust a negative mind-set of mine, all I have to do it tweak some of my opinion of the subject slightly, and naturally, we will found ourselves at the other end of the spectrum soon enough. I know it probably sounds too simplistic or even improbable, but this is what I have discovered about myself – I am that easily swayed. So much that somehow or another, I will be able to hash into my own system to reinstate things. It is insane, sure.